Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
First time for everything
I got a lot on my mind so I need to write it down somewhere.
First it kinda bugs me that I meet amazing people living in China for a year and promise them a friendship that will last..
Well look where we are now. I've kept in touch with two of them.
Everyone has their problems but my biggest problem is my tendency to let go of things.
10th grade I decided I needed to take life more seriously. That approach to life was short lived to say the least. I messed up pretty bad last year not just with school but just being a person I didn't want to be. What I mean by that is I do things I know i'm going to regret and I still go and do it anyways.
I try all these different things, try them and then lose interest. I cant really say I didn't see this coming. When I was 6 I wanted a Beagle really really bad. Marge told me that if I read a book about Beagles shed get me one. Well I never made it past Chapter 1 and I never got a Beagle.
I think it was 4th grade one of my closest friends lent me his bird. I was hyped about it and promised id take reall good care of it. The bird, Chalky the Cockatail, never make it passed the 2nd week and we buried him in our backyard.
This year i'm trying to change. However, I find that every time I get good at something or come close to obtaining it I lose interest. Maybe I just like the thrill of the chase I don't know. Or perhaps Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate but that we are powerful beyond measure
Or maybe im a farb who needs to stop blogging and read Huck finn
First it kinda bugs me that I meet amazing people living in China for a year and promise them a friendship that will last..
Well look where we are now. I've kept in touch with two of them.
Everyone has their problems but my biggest problem is my tendency to let go of things.
10th grade I decided I needed to take life more seriously. That approach to life was short lived to say the least. I messed up pretty bad last year not just with school but just being a person I didn't want to be. What I mean by that is I do things I know i'm going to regret and I still go and do it anyways.
I try all these different things, try them and then lose interest. I cant really say I didn't see this coming. When I was 6 I wanted a Beagle really really bad. Marge told me that if I read a book about Beagles shed get me one. Well I never made it past Chapter 1 and I never got a Beagle.
I think it was 4th grade one of my closest friends lent me his bird. I was hyped about it and promised id take reall good care of it. The bird, Chalky the Cockatail, never make it passed the 2nd week and we buried him in our backyard.
This year i'm trying to change. However, I find that every time I get good at something or come close to obtaining it I lose interest. Maybe I just like the thrill of the chase I don't know. Or perhaps Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate but that we are powerful beyond measure
Or maybe im a farb who needs to stop blogging and read Huck finn
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